“Do you think it’s all the people who have been praying? Because this almost happened right after you put up that post.” - Brian
I think we’re turning a corner 🤞
Her worst seizure week ever 🥺
I keep thinking, “Right. Today is going to be better than yesterday.” Then it isn’t. To give you a bit of context of “normal” seizures for Eloise: Worst seizure control time (pre correct meds): December 2021 — 51 seizures Best seizure control time: May-July 2022 — 1 seizure total August — 12 seizures September (she... Continue Reading →
No rest for the weary
Man it’s been a rough season around here. The good news, I hope, is that it’s just a season. I had planned to write about our shorter-than-expected long Tartu hospital stay. But that plan got derailed yesterday when seizures started. But let’s give you a little background. A few weeks ago (after that weekend of... Continue Reading →
18 months — what a ride
July was our first month where both Brian and I were back at work. It was also a big month for so many other reasons. It was the month we took our first big family trip (a work-cation to the southern Estonian city of Tartu)the month Eloise developed some strange movements that took us to... Continue Reading →
Two sides of the same coin
While training to be a counselor, a friend once said he learned never to assume you know what emotion someone has about an event. "Maybe a woman just lost her long time husband and you think, 'Gosh, I'm sorry, that must have been tough.' But you never know. Maybe he was a violent alcoholic and so her reaction was actually, 'Thank God he's gone. I'm finally free!'" So when you watch this video of Eloise, do you feel pity? Excitement? Or maybe even anger and frustration?
15 months: Digging roads for Eloise
Back in December, when seizures were still new to us, I remember a phone call I had with our doctor in Tallinn at the time. "How's Eloise's seizures?" "Well, she's having anywhere between 5-8 per day." "Okay. Well, contact me if it gets worse." I remember feeling stunned. But, Tartu? "I want you to contact me every time Eloise has a seizure." "Wait. Every time? I'll be writing you a lot." "Yes, every time. I don't mind." And that interaction basically sums up how different the care feels in Tartu versus Tallinn.
One year after Eloise’s Good Friday birth announcement
Almost exactly one year ago, on Good Friday, I finally announced Eloise's birth to the world. It was a teary letter. It seems fitting to re-visit that post a year later because, though we're in a quite different place now than we were then, it is still so prophetic in many ways.
61 weeks: What’s the point of eating?
I feel like this video sums up the spirit of Eloise's week well. Eat food? Nope. 🤔 Eat bath book? YES!!!! 😃 Sigh. Teething babies.🤷🏾♀️
60 weeks: De-cluttering more than stuff
It's so easy for the current reality of Ukraine's destruction to quickly fade from thoughts. The world moves on. And though we are determined to be as present and as joy-filled as we can for this precious girl of ours, lives are still being lost every day in Ukraine. So we still look for ways... Continue Reading →
56 weeks: Teething, miracles, and waiting
This kid takes forever to grow a new tooth -- does anyone else have a kid who takes a month to grow one? But when we got such incredibly great news this week, it's hard to really complain.
Hospital miracles and redemption
We returned last night from our planned Tartu inpatient hospital stay. So. 👏 Much. 👏 Good. 👏 News. 👏 There's no way to easily explain it all in an instagram story or a tiny facebook post, so blogpost here we go!
55 weeks: 17 days seizure-free
Between Eloise's tooth still coming in and her practicing all kinds of new skills, we have been so encouraged this week. Yet like most parents, we've still been pretty worn out by all of her crying and not sleeping. Thankfully, though, her fussy period shouldn't last much longer. At least we hope. 🤞🏾🤞🏾🤞🏾
54 weeks: Exhausted yet hopeful
1 new tooth, 1 stuffy nose, 1 pair of shoes, 1 scheduled hospital visit, 1 struggling-to-nap baby, 8 appointments, and 10 days of no seizures = a set of exhausted yet hopeful parents.
53 weeks: Therapy reset
Overall, really, this has just been a fantastic week. We don't get to say that often, so I'll savor this time while it lasts.
52 weeks: We ❤️ our virtual village (you)
Unlike probably many parents in similar positions, you could say this statement is true of us, "As the parent of adorable Eloise -- who is definitely very disabled -- I am so thankful every time I hear, 'Have you tried [insert unsolicited advice here]? It has saved us so much heartache and pain, and I think it will continue to. We wouldn't have made it without our virtual village." At least at this stage in Eloise's life. So many many many many things we have learned and been able to help Eloise with so far have all come from suggestions from those who read this blog -- many of whom began as total strangers to us. So let me just say a huge thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
51 weeks: Feeling more hope
I feel so much lighter than last week -- for so many reasons. Even though we had a short setback, we really had a lot to be encouraged about.
50 weeks: Hospitalized. Again.
We always expected that Eloise's 16 day seizure-free streak was only temporary. What we did not expect, however, is that her seizures would come back and almost immediately send us back to the hospital. All seizures suck. But SCN1A-related seizures are especially brutal.
Week 8: Finding a new North Star
March 20, 2021 This was originally published on facebook shortly after we received Eloise's diagnosis in 2021. So much to write. So little time. https://youtu.be/dPsNhKL27r4 This week, according to "wonder weeks" she should have given her first smile and tracked objects for short periods of time with her eyes.Smiles have not arrived yet, but apparently... Continue Reading →
Eloise The Tiny Fighter 