“Do you think it’s all the people who have been praying? Because this almost happened right after you put up that post.” - Brian
I think we’re turning a corner 🤞
Her worst seizure week ever 🥺
I keep thinking, “Right. Today is going to be better than yesterday.” Then it isn’t. To give you a bit of context of “normal” seizures for Eloise: Worst seizure control time (pre correct meds): December 2021 — 51 seizures Best seizure control time: May-July 2022 — 1 seizure total August — 12 seizures September (she... Continue Reading →
No rest for the weary
Man it’s been a rough season around here. The good news, I hope, is that it’s just a season. I had planned to write about our shorter-than-expected long Tartu hospital stay. But that plan got derailed yesterday when seizures started. But let’s give you a little background. A few weeks ago (after that weekend of... Continue Reading →
18 months — what a ride
July was our first month where both Brian and I were back at work. It was also a big month for so many other reasons. It was the month we took our first big family trip (a work-cation to the southern Estonian city of Tartu)the month Eloise developed some strange movements that took us to... Continue Reading →
She works so hard
This kid works so hard. It melts your heart. To help practice biting and chewing, we’ve started giving her a freshly baked cheese roll or cinnamon roll a few times a day. (God bless pre-frozen pastries and our air fryer that cooks them in minutes. 😍) These days she’s still refusing most food with her... Continue Reading →
15 months: Digging roads for Eloise
Back in December, when seizures were still new to us, I remember a phone call I had with our doctor in Tallinn at the time. "How's Eloise's seizures?" "Well, she's having anywhere between 5-8 per day." "Okay. Well, contact me if it gets worse." I remember feeling stunned. But, Tartu? "I want you to contact me every time Eloise has a seizure." "Wait. Every time? I'll be writing you a lot." "Yes, every time. I don't mind." And that interaction basically sums up how different the care feels in Tartu versus Tallinn.
One year after Eloise’s Good Friday birth announcement
Almost exactly one year ago, on Good Friday, I finally announced Eloise's birth to the world. It was a teary letter. It seems fitting to re-visit that post a year later because, though we're in a quite different place now than we were then, it is still so prophetic in many ways.
61 weeks: What’s the point of eating?
I feel like this video sums up the spirit of Eloise's week well. Eat food? Nope. 🤔 Eat bath book? YES!!!! 😃 Sigh. Teething babies.🤷🏾♀️
59 weeks: Rested, teething, but happier
Russia (okay, well, Putin) still bombards Ukraine every day. And we still have a kiddo who needs our full attention. So we move on with life -- with teething, with trying to get her to nap, with doing everything in our power to make sure she's growing and developing. We're privileged to be in a place right now that we can do that, so we will. Because life will not always be this peace-filled for us. In the meantime, we'll just hope that the Estonian military experts are correct -- that Russia isn't strong enough to take Kyiv.
57 weeks: Not our best moments
This has been one heckuva week for all 3 of us. Apparently the stress of feeling like we’re constantly fighting — to get Eloise to eat, to get Eloise to nap, to get Eloise’s pain under control — has been taking a toll on us. Add on the fact that her seizures returned for 24 hours and for a minute there we were convinced we were gonna go back to the hospital and 😢. Yeah. It’s not been our best moments.
56 weeks: Teething, miracles, and waiting
This kid takes forever to grow a new tooth -- does anyone else have a kid who takes a month to grow one? But when we got such incredibly great news this week, it's hard to really complain.
Hospital miracles and redemption
We returned last night from our planned Tartu inpatient hospital stay. So. 👏 Much. 👏 Good. 👏 News. 👏 There's no way to easily explain it all in an instagram story or a tiny facebook post, so blogpost here we go!
55 weeks: 17 days seizure-free
Between Eloise's tooth still coming in and her practicing all kinds of new skills, we have been so encouraged this week. Yet like most parents, we've still been pretty worn out by all of her crying and not sleeping. Thankfully, though, her fussy period shouldn't last much longer. At least we hope. 🤞🏾🤞🏾🤞🏾
54 weeks: Exhausted yet hopeful
1 new tooth, 1 stuffy nose, 1 pair of shoes, 1 scheduled hospital visit, 1 struggling-to-nap baby, 8 appointments, and 10 days of no seizures = a set of exhausted yet hopeful parents.
53 weeks: Therapy reset
Overall, really, this has just been a fantastic week. We don't get to say that often, so I'll savor this time while it lasts.
52 weeks: We ❤️ our virtual village (you)
Unlike probably many parents in similar positions, you could say this statement is true of us, "As the parent of adorable Eloise -- who is definitely very disabled -- I am so thankful every time I hear, 'Have you tried [insert unsolicited advice here]? It has saved us so much heartache and pain, and I think it will continue to. We wouldn't have made it without our virtual village." At least at this stage in Eloise's life. So many many many many things we have learned and been able to help Eloise with so far have all come from suggestions from those who read this blog -- many of whom began as total strangers to us. So let me just say a huge thank you from the bottom of our hearts.
51 weeks: Feeling more hope
I feel so much lighter than last week -- for so many reasons. Even though we had a short setback, we really had a lot to be encouraged about.
50 weeks: Hospitalized. Again.
We always expected that Eloise's 16 day seizure-free streak was only temporary. What we did not expect, however, is that her seizures would come back and almost immediately send us back to the hospital. All seizures suck. But SCN1A-related seizures are especially brutal.
49 weeks: Setting dreams and goals
With a 16-day pause from seizures (although today they came back 😥), it gave Brian and I some time to start thinking about our own needs, planning for her future, and enjoying the fact that she is still developing.
Operation: Keep Eloise (Well)
If you're new to our blog, in addition to a bunch of other issues related to her chromosome deletion, Eloise started having regular seizures right after she turned 9 months old. As best as we can tell, not only will it (likely) be hard to control her seizures, but we are going to need to do far more than just keep trying various medications on her. So that's why Brian and I sat down this week to come up with this: Operation Keep Eloise (well).
48 weeks: 10 days of no seizures!
Eloise is 11 months old, wow! Looking back, wow we have so much more capacity this week than we did a month ago. I think there are quite a few things contributing.
Our 2022 word just might change our lives
I can’t remember the last time I made a New Year’s resolution. And I never really understood that trend to pick a “word” for the next year. Yet here we are. With a word to help guide our lives in 2022. But it means way more than I’d ever imagined. And I think it has the potential to change our lives.
47 weeks: Some seizure hope
Even though I feel hesitant to write it out in case I jinx it, I can't help but celebrate. Y'all, 4 out of 7 days this week were seizure-free. Hip, hip hooray! That has felt so hopeful. But I feel way more hope this week, especially around seizures.
Eloise The Tiny Fighter 