It’s crazy how much guilt one simple thing — like when and how the baby comes — can bring with it. Originally, baby boy’s due date was September 3. Then the doctor told me at some point September 1 was more accurate, but it never got changed in the computer — so September 3 it... Continue Reading →
Part 6: Self-care survival plans
Will this baby be as hard as Eloise? Will we be as exhausted? We have no way of knowing until he arrives. But we decided that, this time, knowing roughly some of the worst case scenarios that we experienced last time, we'd rather be overprepared than try to wing it when baby arrives.
Part 4: The results are in
I didn't realize how unprepared I was for the news that came. Estonia is a very tiny nation. It's got 1.3 million people which means everyone knows everyone. Options of many kinds can be limited.
Part 3: What if this one is disabled, too?
My fifth pregnancy had just passed 13 weeks and it was the night before the genetic bloodtest was supposed to come back. If you asked me that night what we'd do if the results showed some sort of genetic abnormality, I still wasn't sure.
Part 1: Pregnancy loss after loss after loss after loss
When Brian and I were going through premarital counseling many moons ago, we were in agreement -- we wanted 3-4 kids. Funny enough, because we were getting married so young, one of my fears was that we'd accidentally end up with far more than 4 kiddos. Yet, within 6 months of our wedding date, we had a long discussion, took a deep breath, and decided it was time to leave babies up to fate. We assumed it would only be a matter of months until we'd be posting our creative pregnancy announcement on social media. Instead, we waited. And waited. And waited.