Itโs crazy how much guilt one simple thing โ like when and how the baby comes โ can bring with it. Originally, baby boyโs due date was September 3. Then the doctor told me at some point September 1 was more accurate, but it never got changed in the computer โ so September 3 it... Continue Reading →
Why our 2023 word needed its own budget
In September, Brian casually plopped down on the couch next to me. It was a really stressful season for us. Brian started. "Hey. I just wanted to get your permission before I bought this thing." Over our 15+ years of marriage, we've always "asked permission" from the other before we buy a large ticket item.... Continue Reading →
Imperfect Christmas is better
Brian and I have spent 16 Christmases together and I canโt remember a single one where we gave one another gifts. Iโm also pretty certain weโve had a home with no tree more often than weโve had one. You see, I love the concept of Christmas โ being close to your loved ones during the... Continue Reading →
Two sides of the same coin
While training to be a counselor, a friend once said he learned never to assume you know what emotion someone has about an event. "Maybe a woman just lost her long time husband and you think, 'Gosh, I'm sorry, that must have been tough.' But you never know. Maybe he was a violent alcoholic and so her reaction was actually, 'Thank God he's gone. I'm finally free!'" So when you watch this video of Eloise, do you feel pity? Excitement? Or maybe even anger and frustration?
60 weeks: De-cluttering more than stuff
It's so easy for the current reality of Ukraine's destruction to quickly fade from thoughts. The world moves on. And though we are determined to be as present and as joy-filled as we can for this precious girl of ours, lives are still being lost every day in Ukraine. So we still look for ways... Continue Reading →
59 weeks: Rested, teething, but happier
Russia (okay, well, Putin) still bombards Ukraine every day. And we still have a kiddo who needs our full attention. So we move on with life -- with teething, with trying to get her to nap, with doing everything in our power to make sure she's growing and developing. We're privileged to be in a place right now that we can do that, so we will. Because life will not always be this peace-filled for us. In the meantime, we'll just hope that the Estonian military experts are correct -- that Russia isn't strong enough to take Kyiv.
Hospital miracles and redemption
We returned last night from our planned Tartu inpatient hospital stay. So. ๐ Much. ๐ Good. ๐ News. ๐ There's no way to easily explain it all in an instagram story or a tiny facebook post, so blogpost here we go!
45-46 weeks: Still much to celebrate
You know, living with her seizures do suck, but we are determined not to let them steal our joy. This little munchkin is still adorable and incredible. So it's time for an actual update, even if it is two weeks rolled into one. Because I want to celebrate the great stuff that's been happening, too.
You can’t always take away your kid’s pain
I've noticed that, as a parent, when your kid is in pain you want to rush in and take it away somehow -- to wave some magic wand that removes the root of what's making your baby hurt. If I'm not mistaken, it's starting to look like that's an impossible wish.
40-42 weeks: Treasures from trials
To say weโve had a few rough patches over the last weeks may be an understatement. In case you missed recent events I posted about on Eloise's facebook group and the stories of Eloise's instagram page, I'll recap it. And then move on to those treasures I mentioned. The very short version On Saturday, November... Continue Reading →
39 Weeks: Maybe solids were magic
I've been kinda freaking out. In the best way possible. I was fully preparing myself for a lifetime of Eloise struggling with food intolerances. Not only that, I was mentally making peace with the fact that not only would I also have to stay on a limited diet for quite some time as I continued... Continue Reading →
38 Weeks: Mushed Banana Giggles
Brian here. I don't often write blogs, partially because I'm so impressed with Mallory's ability to communicate through them, and partially because I never really feel like what I have to say would be meaningful or useful to anyone. But I thought hey, I could give Mallory a bit of break so she could spend... Continue Reading →
30 Weeks: A few steps forward, a few steps back
Eloise turned 7 months old yesterday. Sadly, though, this past week has been a rougher one for her. We seemed to have moved backwards a little on the pain front. The good news, though, is that we moved forwards in a few other pretty great areas. Eloise through the months. โค๏ธ Steps back: Food and... Continue Reading →
29 Weeks: The miracle train keeps on chugging
This last week, Brian and I just kept locking eyes, laughing and saying, "She is doing SO great!" Gosh it's been good for our souls. https://videopress.com/v/5DicIO1S?resizeToParent=true&preloadContent=metadata Brian has quickly noticed Eloise likes his beat-boxing. Those giggles -- we live for them. I have now seen that a number of kiddos with her deletion didn't laugh... Continue Reading →
26 Weeks: So many Roses
A week after we got Eloise's diagnosis, a wise fellow named Jeff sent Brian and I a podcast suggestion: Awesomeology (GRATITUDE) with Neil Pasricha. (Yes, for all of my [Transfer]Wise colleagues, THAT Jeff.) I was still in shock and in a deep, dark hole of grief when he sent us that fateful message. But, at... Continue Reading →
Week 10: Doctors. Therapies. Hospitals. This is our life.
The original facebook post made a month after her original diagnosis in 2021. April 7, 2021 Doctors. Therapies. Hospitals. This is already our life. Like I mentioned, Tuesday last week was the orthopedic surgeon who gave us the good news of no hip dysplasia. Followed by a quick physiotherapy appointment. Then Wednesday we saw a doctor at a private... Continue Reading →
Week 4/Month 1: Pumping
There might be TMI in here for those of you who have never breastfed. So I will label the sections so you can blush and skip that one.